WOW! talk about an eye opener

About an hour after posting my previous post my good friend Cecile tells me I sound arrogant and spoiled and that my blogs are depressing. I LOVE THAT! Thank you Cil for the honesty. I appreciate honesty from people I care about and oppinions matter.

I have been bitter at times but hey I got my reasons. I have become callous to the words of certain people.

But anyways, wow Cil is not the only person who was honest with me. I welcome it. Thank you! From now I will try and be more upbeat and possitive. Take care =D

It is far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help. ~Author Unknown

These days humility is rare.

I still get shocked when I come across someone who is humble. In my immediate bloodline pride and arrogance is the majority. Humility is a word that is unknown. Recently I made friends who are truly good people and it is refreshing to be around them.

Throughout my life the idea "the whole world revolves around me" is how I lived. I mean come on my parents gave me what I wanted when I wanted. Til this day I still get that. My mother whipped out the plastic and bought a brand new toshiba the newest model at bestbuy. I am appreciative and I didn't ask for the laptop she just kept insisting I pick one out. My parents dropped cash whenever they wanna say "thank you" and "I'm sorry".

So when I got my job I met people from all walks of life. Some spoiled rotten, some arrogant, and some truly humble. The ones I choose to be around are the humble ones. Don't get me wrong I am not snobbing anyone, I just really enjoy the time with those who think money doesn't matter, and just want to spend time with their friends. I learned alot in the past 6 months. The Cherries til this day shock me. I am miles away and their friendship, loayalty and consideration is amazing. I envy their closeness and friendship. I have close friends, people I know will be in my life til my last breathe, but at times I envy what the TLC have. They are a unique group and I thank god that these people walked into my life.

I am slowly dispossing of the toxic in my life, although I hate to say it that I can't turn my back on some people.

I believe that I have changed and will continue to in the right direction. The arrogance and lack of humility still lingers. I apologize to those of you who see that, please forgive me.

smiling

Today is the 4th of july here in Hawaii. I woke up bitchier than ever. Haha well that time of the month again. The bitchyness went away as soon as I picked up my blackberry and read the email from Ninerz (the nickname for my godmother). Yay the college got reaffirmed and from the tone of her email I could tell she was happy as if I could hear her reading it out loud =D. Hearing from the Ninerz always makes my day.She is a fun writer. What a wonderful way to kick off the day.

Then as I check facebook read the messages then on to my text messages man one day my bffs and I will be admitted into the psych ward. Next on the morning ritual are the rest of the emails. *sigh* the emails bring fun good news and sometimes words from a broken record. Jeeze another way to nag me and a reminder why some people needed to be dismissed from my life.

Another thing that made this a good day in paradise is I talked to the cool and eccentric Jenen. She gave me good advice to do the right thing. Which I will, no more being shady with the good people in my life.

Like said earlier my bffs and I will occupy the psych ward at chc. Lol. If I was to talk about the bffs here boy oh boy will the doctors come after each one of us. Haha group therapy... Wait can we be charged if the doctors commit suicide after sessions with me and the bffs?! Hee hee

The reason behind this blog is keep in touch with loved ones and never take those who matter for granted.

I won't ever take those you matter to me for granted. Or the places I love.

CONGRATULATIONS NMC on your reaffirmation. Biba NMC! Go Proas!!!

cliche paradise

I guess Honolulu is paradise to those people whole don't get the ocean breeze who don't get to walk out and feel the heat of the sun who want to have summer all year round who want the commercial
tropical paradise as if in those sunblock commercials. If that's what you want you want well then pack your bags and trot your happy self to these little pebbles in the pacific.
I'm fortunate I come from a true paradise still raw where the locals don't have to fight for the land or struggle to keep the language alive.

I will be home soon. I love my little island its me. I won't say that I won't ever leave again. As the saying goes "home is where the heart is".

I feel guilty that its in the back of my head that one day Saipan will be a vacation spot for me. But the people in your life is part of your home. They hold a spot in your heart. For now I'm happy. Saipan is home. I'm just saying you never know the scale could tip.